This weekend was just what I needed, especially after last week. Being off work was a treat in itself but what really topped the weekend off was getting to spend a lot of time with my 2 best friends, Alisa and Shawn. I'm the most comfortable around them and a conversation with them can always get me out of my bad moods. I love all ya'll!! I have to give a special thanks to Dustin for this past week...he listened to me go on and on for 4 hours Tuesday night. If it hadn't been for that animal and my being paranoid at 3 am, I probably would have bitched longer. I started thinking today that maybe there is a time in your life when you should be a little selfish. Yeah, its good to be considerate of other's feelings but after 18 years it seems like its went way past caring about everyone else in that I've set aside what I wanted to make everyone else happy. I feel like I'm always the one thats going out of my way to do anything I can for the people in my life and sometimes its like they don't care about me at all. I love my family to death but I've gotta get out of this house. I feel guilty cause I know they need me to be around and I don't want them to think I'm packing my bags and leaving right at the time they need me most. But for me, I need to leave. I think 19 is the year for me to make myself happy instead of everyone else. Which Ive got about a month before I move into Lucy!! I'm really nervous about it but I'm extremely excited.